addiction

here's the things i hide inside
in plain view for all to see
to write them out in plain words
would be a sore to me
and blasphemy

at every  tick of every clock
an internal prowler rounds the block
and rings a bell which music swells
into my mind its time its time!

Heroin is no fun for me
and keep your pills of ecstasy
they had their time but lost their lime
to a more delightful pantomime

So wheel it in! My lovely sin
I will never go to jail
Though you may lead me to a hospital bed
I won't deny, without you ---
I'd be better off dead.

25 + 0

It's early because I still have time. It's late because I've missed so much. 

Midnight rides in my dad's firebird

listening to Queen reminding us 

that it's late but not too late. 

That we don't want to live forever. 

And these are the days of our lives. 

Going to the record store

to pick up Metallica's "Nothing Else Matters"

and touching the black cover that distinguishes it 

from the brightly colored albums of hair metal bands. 

Me and Gina sitting in the back seat

tiny legs barely reaching over the end of the chair

We sing along and eat chicken nuggets

from Burger King

Dad always gets us fries even though I never eat them. 

I am a bony little girl with no appetite. 

Kids should be free to roam the nights. 

The night will never look as beautiful again

and I'll never smell the night the same

and be able to take big gulps of blackness

in my mouth and swallow it whole. 

If I had more time and didn't have to go home early

and sleep because of school- 

then I would remember it clearly now

I would have no regrets perhaps. 

It seems like the world tries to get us so occupied

that we fail to realize the important things are right in front of us.

I used to ditch high school for that reason.

Now, I want to ditch society.